- weird l0ve ❀

Like really, why am I always ILL.. All the time :( its sad unoe, I get:
- colds/flu/virus’s
- sneeze 10times a second
- bad hayefever in the spring/summer which consists of rubbing of the eyes, runny nose/blocked nose, tiredness etc
- belly aches
- headaches
- sore throat
- chest pains
- weakness

Please oh please can I be well enough for college this week :( exams are in 2MONTHS!

This now means I will be:
- late to places, 1hr :(
- bloody CONFUSED
- constantly tired with the change

But atm I’m kinda scared to move my blackberry time; I don’t want to get it wrong and be living in some random time zone, I’m one of them clumsy donuts who always seems to mess something up :/ lol I don’t even understand what time it is now. Is it 00:56 or 1:56, what time does it bloody change..

Allow it, I think we lose out on sleep too :/

Let me try and find out WHY exactly people feel the need to discourage others:
- intimidation
- jealousy
- literally don’t want them to do well
- wish they had the confidence to do something like that
- dumbness lol

Those who discourage me yhhhhhh, you can fall back, I will make something of myself no matter what! I trust God and I know he has something amazing for me. I would appreciate if people didn’t doubt me and try and convince me to do other things like NO I won’t listen to you, I’m the kind of person that goes with my heart+passion not with my head and what others think..

I would rather make something out of myself and prove others wrong rather than take peoples evil advice and fail. #nothanks

When I’m bored I sit down and google food. #loser

I hate how on a saturday+sunday my body just decides to wake up early; like seriously? I wake up around 7 every morning and the ONE time I can sleep till whenever I’m up 1hr later :( damn men my body needs to FIX up

So basically I’m going to New York next year with the media department. OH YEAHHH *happydance* .. First time EVER going to America, I’m so excited.. BUT it costs £729’ I’ve payed my deposit etc BUT I’m going into University next year; I’m turning 18 next year and its the last year I’m going to be with my friends next year.. Hmmm, where does money come into this:

18th - doing something BIG
Uni - DEBT + living alone+food
Friends - last holiday together etc..

I’m not a rich girl lol, I live of dinner money, I have no job :(, I get money from my parents occasionally but I personally don’t think its enough :(, for some it may be but I’m hard to maintain because I spend 70% of my money on FOOOOOD :D and 30% on clothes.. Soooo
This means I have to save every penny I bloody get :( #sadtimes.. I love spending money on food+clothes and now I have to ration it down :( ..
Wahhhh

The title says it all lol; its stresssful man; all my stuff are divided and I feel lost. I’ve been sleeping on a matress floor+miss my lovely comfy bed. I just miss my rooooom’ it’ll be better once done though. Freshly ‘bumble matted’ lol..

I keep forgetting I have AS exams in 2months!!!!! 2 bloody MONTHS! It sounds like yhhhhh dts ages away when in reality its like a WEEK, *well to me* lol’ I really have to stay focuses and keep my head burried in my books ;) x

Sometimes I dream about going into a new world. *sad but I don’t care* a world with no worries, a world with no pain, a world with no guilt, a world with no fights but a world with peace, love and unity.. Clearly I’m dreaming because this can never happen in reality..

I wish it was easy to escape..

Its time to let go and let God.