Like really, why am I always ILL.. All the time :( its sad unoe, I get:
- sneeze 10times a second
- bad hayefever in the spring/summer which consists of rubbing of the eyes, runny nose/blocked nose, tiredness etc
- belly aches
- sore throat
- chest pains
Please oh please can I be well enough for college this week :( exams are in 2MONTHS!
So the clocks are going one hour foward in England
This now means I will be:
- late to places, 1hr :(
- bloody CONFUSED
- constantly tired with the change
But atm I’m kinda scared to move my blackberry time; I don’t want to get it wrong and be living in some random time zone, I’m one of them clumsy donuts who always seems to mess something up :/ lol I don’t even understand what time it is now. Is it 00:56 or 1:56, what time does it bloody change..
Let me try and find out WHY exactly people feel the need to discourage others:
- literally don’t want them to do well
- wish they had the confidence to do something like that
- dumbness lol
Those who discourage me yhhhhhh, you can fall back, I will make something of myself no matter what! I trust God and I know he has something amazing for me. I would appreciate if people didn’t doubt me and try and convince me to do other things like NO I won’t listen to you, I’m the kind of person that goes with my heart+passion not with my head and what others think..
I would rather make something out of myself and prove others wrong rather than take peoples evil advice and fail. #nothanks
I hate how on a saturday+sunday my body just decides to wake up early; like seriously? I wake up around 7 every morning and the ONE time I can sleep till whenever I’m up 1hr later :( damn men my body needs to FIX up
So basically I’m going to New York next year with the media department. OH YEAHHH *happydance* .. First time EVER going to America, I’m so excited.. BUT it costs £729’ I’ve payed my deposit etc BUT I’m going into University next year; I’m turning 18 next year and its the last year I’m going to be with my friends next year.. Hmmm, where does money come into this:
18th - doing something BIG
Uni - DEBT + living alone+food
Friends - last holiday together etc..
I’m not a rich girl lol, I live of dinner money, I have no job :(, I get money from my parents occasionally but I personally don’t think its enough :(, for some it may be but I’m hard to maintain because I spend 70% of my money on FOOOOOD :D and 30% on clothes.. Soooo
This means I have to save every penny I bloody get :( #sadtimes.. I love spending money on food+clothes and now I have to ration it down :( ..
The title says it all lol; its stresssful man; all my stuff are divided and I feel lost. I’ve been sleeping on a matress floor+miss my lovely comfy bed. I just miss my rooooom’ it’ll be better once done though. Freshly ‘bumble matted’ lol..
I keep forgetting I have AS exams in 2months!!!!! 2 bloody MONTHS! It sounds like yhhhhh dts ages away when in reality its like a WEEK, *well to me* lol’ I really have to stay focuses and keep my head burried in my books ;) x
Sometimes I dream about going into a new world. *sad but I don’t care* a world with no worries, a world with no pain, a world with no guilt, a world with no fights but a world with peace, love and unity.. Clearly I’m dreaming because this can never happen in reality..
Damn, lol letting go of certain things&people is HARD! When so much has gone on its hard to just blank it and go on asif nothing ever happened. For me I find it EXTREMELY hard which I think is mostly due to my Religion. I’m a Christian and Christians believe in forgiving and forgetting.. In my case I forgive tooo easily which is why I think people LOVE to take the piss. Although I may forgive it does NOT mean I will neccessarily quickly forget and let you keep taking the piss. No. Just no. People love to take advantage of kidness and I hate that..
I need to learn to forgive, forget and move my ass on lol. So tired of people acting up and treating you like no one when to you they are everything. Ok not everything but unoe.. Lol
Letting go is hard but its something that needs to be done and in time :), I’m such an emotional wreck lol
Soo I’ve been feeling a lil :| these past few days.. I think I’m confused. Lol I don’t understand boys; well the boys I know *i don’t want to generalise because I’m sure there’s amazing ones somewhere*.. Boys complain how particular girls are sluts/whores, have no morals, smoke, moody, bait, easy etc but YET that’s the ones they go for. They say they want a girl who’s respectful, beautiful, loving etc but YET they look past those ones..
I’m a girl who REFUSES to change for anyone *unless I’m THAAT bad* if a boy simply can’t respect the morals I have and the way I carry myself they boyy they know where the door is. Its just irritating how hey would say they hate easy girls yet they go for them..
I’ve learn over the past 2/3 years to open my options to specific people’ being fussy won’t get anyone anywhere.. Idunno I’m probably just ranting now but I find it really hard to find that ‘special’ thing In people. They always prove they are like everyone else.. *sigh*. In Gods time mannn the best will happen
Yo; lol, so yesterday I was too busy packing everything in my room into black bags -_-. Literally. Everything. With no help. With my 5’1, 7stone self. EVERYTHING! It was bloody tiring, everyone was complaining at how I didn’t do this and that But they didn’t even have the sense to help; I just hope my re-decorated room looks HOT ;), I chose the colour ‘bumble matt’ because it looks unique :).
I really want to go up London for a day in the park to have a picnic, I have NO idea why’ or maybe just shop in west end, sometimes I think essex is too boring :s
Dreams - there’s so many things I want to do mannnnn, so many things I want to achieve in life. Although I’m only 16 I believe its so much better to get in certain industries now and make a name of yourself rather than starting at the age of 26 :|’ I trust in God that whatever he has planned for my future WILL be beautiful, I just hope others will have the same faith. If something is truly supposed to happen in someone’s life then it WILL. Just gotta hope&pray :)
Fooooood - its the morning and I’m starving.. As always lol..
Hope everyone has a blessed day
Those who know me know my love+passion for food, I love chinese, pizza, RIBS, kfc, mc donnalds, chips, chicken wings, chicken strips, spahgettii and meatballs, spaghetti and minced meat, CAKE, kinder bueno, monster munch, chicken nuggets, mc chicken sandwhich, big mac, cheese burger, mayo chicken, sausage+egg mc muffin, burgers, bacon, fried chicken, plantain, jollof rice, fried rice, plantain+gizard, meat.. This list can go ON! Lool; so I’m on the way to school + I’m starving and dreaming about all of this delicious foods :D :D
Yeah soo I was supposed to be getting my room done in 2/3 weeks time; the person doing it specifically told me to wait until two days before he does the work so I can chose the colour I want and clear my room.. Well!! He came today to tell me ishould clear my room for tuesday.. 2days a friken way. Aleast give a girl more notice.. Not like I haven’t got sixthform during the week and work to do.. Wahh :(! I’m slyly excited though :D! Lol aint had my room done since I moved in 6years ago :| .. I’ve chosen to have it ‘b’ sumfin ‘matt’ can’t remember the name but its like a soft, creamy, cream/brownish colour.. I like ;) but yeahh.. I shall be off.. Early start tomorrow :(..
Well this is my first time using tumblr, *HORRAY!* lol. For a strange reason im feeling really positive and motivated :). I have NO idea why but you know. To be here is a blessing and i might as well make use of that blessing. I have so many good things to look forward to in life and sooooo many things i want to accomplish&achieve so i might aswell start by cleansing my soul .. if that makes sense lol but yeah.. I hope in the long run someone reads this <3 x