Im just so tired of so many things its unbelievable. I just dont understand myself or anyone anymore. Im just so paranoid nowadays its probably ruining the relationships around me but what can i do?. No one seems to understand. How much bloody crap i have to go through everyday! I know everyone has their bad times at home etc but some of the stuff i go through i cant turn to no one. Not even my sister, mum or close family. Ive probably only opened “up” to two people before but thats just half of the story ive told. Its like no one understands me anymore. The only way i deal with crap is go on tumblr, listen to music and wish it all goes away, then it does, and comes back. Again. Situation after another.
This is probably the only reason why i get good grades. Anytime im going through “shit” i turn my negativity and pain to my books. Sounds corny but i just go and revise or do school work to get my mind of things and thats probably why i got such good AS grades on thursday.
If i was to have any regrets in life itll probably be meeting a few people. Rude but no one cares so why should i?. There is just SOOOOOOOOO many ungrateful people around its unbelievable i cant stand it. I can even easily tear up from seeing a father holding his little girls hand.
Ok im getting emotional now, tumblr helps me get my mind off things alot thankfully. But yeah, im not getting any younger so maybe its time to just let go and move on from a few people.